Archive for May 25, 2010

I seriously think that working in DID is no good now…

cause 黑暗就在身边。我无时无刻都能抛入黑暗里躲,消失在那人群中。

i guess after getting used of darkness… i would start to make use of it. Now gotta prevent myself entering the darkness… entering the depressive state… which happens rather frequently…

i think i always always feel tired after an outburst… no matter how small the thing is, but it makes me… tired.. exhausted.. for nothing.. cant help myself…

i need to get out of this mood and do work.. but no matter how… i still have no motivation… sick and tired of me saying that i have no motivation… cant i get down to do work? cant i?

sometimes really hope that a car can just bang me and i’ll die.. just like that… life is already too long sometimes… why make it tedious by making life hard? whats the point of living sometimes?

i dont get it… dont get myself anymore.. wish to disappear… forever… just like that… leaving everything behind just like that…

sickening selfish me…

wish i would disappear

just like that…

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