Archive for June, 2010

stressed up…

Posted: June 30, 2010 in Uncategorized

ya… this is a difficult week ba.. somemore i am supposed to do log sheet one.. but not doing now and slacking.. cannot help it…

suddenly thought of what desmond peh said today.. they really treat us like robots… i think that is so true…

i dont understand… the lecturers were students before… dont they know how stressful life is? even now.. they should know.. just dont understand why sometimes adults thinks that we are wan neng de… they only see the end product and not see the effort we put in to get the end product.. adults always neglect that very important thing… i guess as people grow older, they see less, feel less and care less… lets hope i wont be like that…

thanks sy for ur listening ear today! i guess i always cry in front of u.. haha… i guess felt better, talked a little with my mom… but still nan mian must keep that smile on my face…

about an entirely different thing: i am so gonna flip one day if he continue saying whatever he say… do u think u are the only one who can and will get angry? do u think u are the only one who can hit things and run away? do u think u are the only who we must be careful around because maybe by saying the wrong thing, it might trigger something and make u mad… dont carry it too far… i also have a temper… want to play also got a limit one can?

lets just hope we can safely finish up this month of internship…

emotions are stormy…
thats bad…

i’m not making sense again.. shall slack and sleep and do log sheet in the morn.. hehe

bye~!

突然。。。

Posted: June 26, 2010 in Uncategorized

刚才,
突然间, 很想念某某人…

现在,
突然间,心跳加速… 有一种莫名的紧张以及期待。 有点weird… i was freaking looking at make up… what was i expecting that makes me have this very weird feeling which most of the time happen when i read really romantic books and imagine the girl is me… haiz.. really weird.. i just keep smiling to myself for no reason.. the kind of… smile…

真的,真的,好奇怪哦!

Protected: My own dare…

Posted: June 23, 2010 in Uncategorized

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Announcement!

Posted: June 23, 2010 in Uncategorized

To all whom it may concern… pls slap/scold/hit/poke/remind/and-other-action-word-you-can-think-of me when u feel that i’m being bitchy/moody/whiney/selfish/absolutely childish for no reasons…

THANKS A LOT!

because i cant stand myself sometimes.. but i just cant help it…

here’s a quick update…

Posted: June 18, 2010 in Uncategorized

haven been blogging much… maybe cause nothing to write.. or maybe just because i cant put whatever i’m feeling down into words…

had a semi breakdown session the other day… cannot help it.. fyp was too stressful… add in the disappointment i felt after hearing what the lecturers said.. its like 从天空掉到了地狱… i know should be no need to stress that much one.. but sometimes i’m just sick and tired of handling humans.. especially adults… handling their demands, expectations.. and shit… i know i’m gonna be like them soon in the future.. but oh well now is now.. shall not think too much about the future…

thanks to shoot, sy and kaiting for standing by when i’m releasing my pent up emotions… although quite failed.. but still haha… i guess after years of not wanting to let people worry, dont want to let people know i cry… i now lost the 能力 to cry le… i guess i still have a lot of pent up emotions in me that i cant dig out because its too deeply buried already… i guess when the dam opens.. flooding is going to occur… lets just hope i dont flood at the wrong time… after so long of 忍-ing… i also wan someone to worry for me… be there when i cry and be jealous of some people just for the sake of being jealous… i dont think this is too much to ask for ba… but just gotta wait long long ba i guess…

oh well…

life still goes on…

hopeful sometimes also no use…

just have to get used to it and move on…

tackle any problems in front of me… and learn how to remove these problems before moving forward…

c’est la vie…

thats life…

bye…