Archive for July, 2011

Obsessed

Posted: July 28, 2011 in Uncategorized

How cool is this? Blogging with my phone XD

Today a bit sian.. Cause alone in the office with the interns.. Lol.. Can u believe? I’m blogging about everyday life.: lol XD

Sigh.. I think I’m obsessed now… Really crazy.. I think this is first time man.. Hopefully will not happen again because i think it’s gonna last quite long.. XD don’t ask me what if u dunno what I talking about cause I think it’s embarrassing because its absolutely not ‘me’ absolutely absolutely not me XD but oh well… Hehe

I think since I’m entering a new stage of me life.. and I can’t find a job… I shall make use of me time better… Starting Monday XD… I shall start up that beauty blog of mine Which I haven’t started… XD stay tune! And I think I’m gonna be thick skin enough to ask every one to support me.. XD and I think it’s gonna be damn weird.. Hahaha absolutely…

Shall try not to discourage myself too much… really hope that I can stop being in this depress mode.. Cause if not I’m gonna start hating myself!!!

Jia you ba! Maybe I’m fated to follow my dad’s footsteps and be my own boss XD

BYE!

Random…

Posted: July 22, 2011 in Uncategorized

Just a random post before I sleep..

Just suddenly have the thought… Have u ever meet some ppl who out to make u feel bad about urself… That u are useless and can’t do anything…

And there are some who are just too good to u and make u feel that u are the best and everythig…

I guess I’ve meet both kinds of ppl in 20 years of life and especially recently.. Not say it’s a bad thing or a good one case there is always 2 sides to a coin depending on how u see it.. But probably it’s cause im the first kind of person to myself and the second kind to others… I can’t helP but drown myself in this situation..

The better ppl say I am.. The worse I see myself… And when ppl question me and my ability.. I question even harder…

It seems that I’m in a hyper-sensitive mood.. Really too sensitive that I do t know what to do with myself…

I’m seeing some progress in sorting out my thoughts… Hutu think I still have a long long long way to go…

I feel that I’m not doing enough.. Am I or am i not? Sighhhh

I shall sleep..

Random: so looking forward to 10 sept XD

Bye

unstable…

Posted: July 19, 2011 in Uncategorized

after so long there is still no reply… i keep having the feel that things will go wrong at this point of my life…

not a good feeling… easily irritated and everything… is it wrong for me to have the urge to be alone? once i’m alone i seem to crave more alone time… my emotions are so unstable now i dont know how i would feel next…

the worst part is that i dont know what the heck is happening to me…

whats wrong now?

can someone tell me whats wrong now?

when can i be sure of myself and stop being so useless?

i find myself useless so many times… but i just got no energy to go forward and do more….

why is that so?

what is happening to me?

all excuses… what is it leading to?

oh gosh oh gosh?

am i facing an identity crisis? should i even be in this stage yet? isnt it too early?

sigh

bye

again?

Posted: July 16, 2011 in Uncategorized

It seems that i think the most at night.. no wonder i almost always have dreams when i sleep…

last night’s dream was so weird because it was so real… but something i hope will not come true.. not a nightmare.. but just damn weird…

its seems that recently i have more and more things i wanna say but got no place to express… or got things to say but dunno how to say…

this kind of feeling is completely unpleasant..

sometimes i think that i’m lying to myself that by acting blur everything will be alright…

sigh… i’m not making sense again…

just so confused.. there seems to be so many thoughts but i can never put it into words… sometimes i dont even know what i’m thinking at all… its frustrating…

sigh..

i guess i shall just go sleep..

lol…

sorry if u think that u wasted ur time reading this post… XD

bye

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